Hello everyone,

I let you know that my blog moved to other website and you can carry on reading my stories here: 

http://heartbrokenstilettos.com/


Love,
Lindsay

Insight of a Japanese hostess club

Suddenly a big fat guy came in, his fleshy nose was already red from alcohol and when he noticed me, he immediately requested me. Annushka, our Russian barmaid came to take me to his table. The guy was wearing a greyish office suit and was sweating, like he was running from work straight to our club. I gave him the towel and he cleaned the beads of sweat from his forehead, then idly threw it on the table.

“I love big boobs!”

What an impressive introduction!

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Women in the club

It's quite funny to see when a woman comes to the club and she tries to outdo the strippers. I told you earlier, there is such a big competition between the girls already, but some female customers want to show us she can get the same attention, without knowing anything about our job. She asks if she's allowed to go on stage and do a dance. Usually, the little devil whispers in his ears and the manager doesn't say no, just for fun. But for us, it's just pathetic seeing a “normal” woman trying to spin on the pole and seduce the audience, just like us. Yes, usually she's drunk as hell, and her movement is uncoordinated. She has no idea that dancing on stage is just one little part of our work, selling, participating in mind games and dealing with difficult customers require more than having the courage to take off our bra in public. Sometimes they didn't even ask if they can go on stage; it happened in Belgium that two women came in with their partners, they ordered a bottle of champagne, and all night they were running around the club without their blouses. Although the worst, when a dancer of another club comes in and she wants to show off on stage that she's better than everybody in the room. Women, eh? Do you believe now that it is such a competitive world?

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New book: The Stripper and the Yakuza

Keep updated! My new book is on the way!
Would you like to read it?

Bella's life is full of excitement, fun and travel as she's working as a free-lancer exotic dancer. Her big dream was always to travel to Japan and she said yes to her Russian friend's, Natalia's proposal, who offered help finding a place for her in a Japanese hostess club. Upon her arrival, Bella is full of hopes and excitements, but soon she discovers the world of the workaholic Japanese customers, their lack of speaking English and the games between clients and their obedient hostesses. By her nature she's always honest and straight forward, but in Japan this in not the required behaviour. Bella becomes more and more exhausted at work, bodily and mentally, she goes through a culture shock and feels rejected in the country of her dreams.

One day, Yoshihiro, a pleasant customer who speaks good English appears in the club. Bella immediately spots his yakuza tattoo and realises he's a gangster, but instead of being scared, she becomes curious.

Bella is independent, free, careless. A stripper. Yoshihiro is strong, dominant, loyal. A yakuza. Can their two different worlds meet and develop a life-long relation?

We, dancers, are naked therapist

Stripping is an expensive job emotionally, people with tempers find me often. Not only customers, but girls also if there is something bothers them. Sometimes I feel I'm doing a therapy session at work.

“Because you are pure and such a good person, thank you for listening to me.” I hear often.

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My thoughts on dick pics

Once in London I finished my shift and I was in a hurry to catch my night bus from Tottenham Court Road. I was at the bus stop when a young guy stepped in front of me holding his mobile close to my face.

“Look!”

It was a picture of a – I suggest his – penis. It's okay to be proud of your precious male part, but why do you think I want to see it, especially in this way of presentation? Is this the only thing you can offer to a woman, does it make you a man?

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Photoblog - Singapore, Palawan beach

Every time I travel I like to meet local people. Photo camera is a bonus :)


Photos by Christopher Tan

The way to a stripper's heart

"On my journey, I have met lots of different men. Some were saints, others were sinners. If my Prince Charming hasn't come to me on this road, I decided to set out for him. Somewhere our paths will meet and I will recognise in him the man I was waiting for in my entire life, it doesn't matter what kind of disguise he wears to hide his true self."

I wrote in my book if I met the right guy, I would recognise him whatever mask he wears. By the time I finished the book, I met someone special at work. I met him in the period when my book was finished but hadn't been published yet.

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The judgement is yours. The lessons are mine.

This lifestyle still holds so many secrets. Some people have no clue about it. Men see the pretty girl on stage doing some erotic moves and slowly taking her clothes off while they fantasize what they would do with her body in private. Dancing is the best aphrodisiac as the soft moves of the body helps to unblock the sexual energies. Men like to watch a woman dancing because they can keep an eye on her from a distance seeing her whole body as it moves with the rhythm of the music and makes her irresistibly desirable for them. 

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Photoblog - Budapest dream

These photos are from last summer when I worked with a talented Hungarian photographer. I was very happy with the photos but sadly after he stopped taking pictures..

Photos by Laszlo Racz

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MY BOOK IS FINALLY HERE!

http://publioboox.com/en_gb/bedtime-stories-from-stripperland

Men, gentlemen, guys

I have good news for you: my book is finally finished! The most exciting period is yet to come, to find a publisher or literary agent whom I can establish a good relation for my future plans. Difficult, but it's not impossible. If I could have reached the point where I'm standing now, there is nothing to stop me from achieving my goals. I had amazing years of experience in nightlife working as an exotic dancer what made me who I am today and shaped my opinion about men and relationships. 

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Merry Christmas to all!

This time of the year it always seems I'm disappearing from the eyes of the world. Indeed it's kind of true. But don't worry, I'm okay. I left Germany and I spend this Christmas with my family. They are happy to see me and spend some time with me as I was a little unfaithful to them in the past 5 years and I didn't come home to celebrate Christmas with them. I was either working or just found an excuse to stay in London. This time is special and they feel honoured that I made time to come home. Too bad for them, I'm planning to stay longer than they thought. :) Only kidding, every time I come home, I have my place here and I'm always welcome.

I'm restless because I'm working on the book which I'd like to finish until the end of January, that's reason why I remain a little quieter here and on other social websites. This is an exciting time of the year for me. Family, Christmas, new year and a new start..

Wish me good luck then!

I'm wishing you all a peaceful Christmas and holiday season and I hope all your wishes come true in the New year!

With love,

Lindsay

Photoblog - geroart.com

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Those sweet temptations

Here comes another confession from me. I don't consider myself as bisexual although at work customers often like to have fun with two or more girls that like each other also in a sexual way. And it's always easier for the girls too to sit with one customer as they can get rid of the drinks easier not to mention easier to keep him (and his hands) under control. So of course when a client asks me if I like girls, I would answer “Yes, can I introduce my friend to you?” In that case, I'm in the game, light touching and kissing make the moment more sexy and playful.

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Greetings from Germany!

Just a quick update because I didn't write here lately:

The club where I work now, it reminds me of the first club I worked. A bit quiet but nice and relaxing. I like everything about it. The accommodation is just super, I have my own room with my own bathroom and kitchenette. I don't need to share it with other dancers. And I was shocked upon arrival when I saw the boss cleaning up the room for me, usually they just leave it as the previous girl left it, and I have to clean before I move in. Those girls who travel for work know it's very rare in this business. Dancers apartments are usually dirty and overcrowded. Here if I want to run around naked all day, I can do it. I'm by myself. (No, it's not boring! That's my well-desired peacefulness!)

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Meeting Mr. Grey

I think there is nobody on this planet who doesn't know who is Mr Grey and his fifty shades. Or what does it mean being Mr Grey? In my recent club in Germany, it was a quiet night, not so many customers. This guy came in and sat in the booth in the corner. He was wearing a blue jumper so actually, I should call him Mr Blue. I went over to say hello but he was not interested. I would say he was a bit arrogant and distant so I left him after 5 minutes talking. He was just an average looking guy but he mentioned something that he's special. (Oh yeah, everybody here thinks he's special!) Then I sat with another customer in the next booth, but I felt he's watching me. It kind of made me angry. If you don't want my company and pay me, stop staring!

My customer left and I sat alone while the other girls were working. Suddenly this guy came to my table and sat down next to me.

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My Top 20 chart

Sometimes I work in clubs where is a DJ, so I don't need to select my own music to dance to. But then I have to dance on any songs he plays without any requests. In other clubs there is a DJ and I can give him my music or even he asks me to choose my own songs. Often I'm not bothered, I just tell him to play any.. as one my manager used to say "you're a dancer, you must to know how to move on any kind of songs." Nothing more disappointing then seeing and amazing pole dance show when the dancer can't follow the rhythm of her music. I've seen enough examples of that.. If I have to choose, I always pick those that suitable to my move.

Still, I have my favourites. And just like in anything, I like to be unique in choosing the right songs as well. I never choose the songs that you can hear on the radio every day, or the classic striptease music like the You Can Leave Your Hat On. I have music from all over the world. That's why happened that in the Caribbean I danced on German songs, in Germany I dance on French songs.

Here is the list:

20. Baby Bash ft. Akon - I'll be your lover

19. Sido - Strip fur mich

18. Macka Diamond - Dye dye

17. Ivan Dorn vs. Klaas - The Lova

16. Maitre Gims - J'me tire

15. Tiziano Ferro - Senza scappare mai piu

14. Gyptian - Hold you

13. Massari - Real love

12. Blero - Sexy moves

11. Clara Morgane - Strip tease

10. Lil Kim - Kitty box

9. One Republic - Secrets

8. Gasparoff - Knights of Citeriya

7. Ofra Haza - Show me

6. Andreea D - Paradise

5. D'Banj - Oliver Twist

4. Isthar - Last kiss

3. Massari - Inta hayati

2. Xavier Naidoo - 20.000 Meilen
1. Kymani Marley - Royal vibes

Here is also a playlist: 
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-9O4rU_GHeKBOyjkAq_W1WxnXSrsqXcH
There is no special order between the songs, I equally like them. It depends on my mood which one I prefer to dance to. But the No.1. is on the first place, because whenever I danced on this song, girls couldn't wait for me leaving the club and they could use it for their own performance. So it's not just my No.1.!

And then when I have to make a special show, I like to do a little belly dance. These are the songs for my fantasy shows:

Sarah Brightman - Harem
Alanis Morisette - I remain
Amr Diab - Tamally Maak

So that is the list of my favourite songs. I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoy dancing on them. :)

How men approach a stripper

My job is to approach clients, I keep it in mind. But different men, different rules. Some don't even bother to be nice, when he sees I'm going to his table, just lifts up his hand in the air showing I'm not welcome there. Others are talking to me for long minutes without buying me a drink and then they are surprised why I stop answering them or apologise that I must go to work. 

So let's see here what are the most behaviour of men in approaching a dancer.

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The sad Hungarian reality

I didn't want to write about it because I haven't decided what is my opinion. I'm just a stupid stripper who doesn't talk about politics. Right? BUT.… Now I'm in Germany and people are still asking my opinion about the refugees in Hungary after it seems everybody is happy as Germany save them from the Hungarian hell. For Germany it's easy to be the white knight. One of the strongest country in Europe. But Hungary is already bleeding from thousands of wounds.

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