"Well-behaved women seldom make history."
- Laurel Thatcher Ulrich

Thursday, 22 June 2017

Photoblog - Singapore, Palawan beach

Every time I travel I like to meet local people. Photo camera is a bonus :)


Photos by Christopher Tan







Tuesday, 20 June 2017

The way to a stripper's heart

"On my journey I have met lots of different men. Some were saints, others were sinners. If my Prince Charming hasn't come to me on this road, I decided to set out for him. Somewhere our paths will meet and I will recognise in him the man I was waiting for in my entire life, it doesn't matter what kind of disguise he wears to hide his true self."


I wrote in my book if I met the right guy, I would recognise him whatever mask he wears. By the time I finished the book, I met someone special at work. I met him in the period when my book was finished but hadn't been published yet.
How funny, I didn't want to approach him at the beginning. He was playing on the slotmachine and I didn't want to disturb him, but my boss poked me:
"Go to him, he's a good  customer!"
He called me and treated me as a Princess from the beginning. Can you imagine how much the other girls in the club hated me because of that?? (I wonder if he knew about what kind of book I was working on..) In that shitty club I was working, he made me feel special.
He was not perfect, but I'm not perfect either. We had some fights, specially when I was drunk at work and I was more passionate about everything than usual. But we found compromises in everything that brought problems to the table. Sometimes the situation was a bit overheated but a few days later we were just laughing on it.
When I changed clubs and needed to travel to another city, he offered me his help that he could take me there with his car and I accepted it with no fears. When one week later he visited me on that new place, I did something I've never ever done before: I paid his bill in the club because he didn't have enough cash. He didn't ask, I offered. I sneaked out from work to my room above the club and brought him the money. You see, I'm not your average stripper! Paying the customer's bill (5 bottles of expensive champagne) sounds pretty crazy, right? But I trusted him from the beginning and he paid back the last penny I gave him. 
Maybe he was not my Mr. Right, but he treated me in the right way as man never treated me before. It was not about the five star hotels, but I'm not gonna lie, I loved that luxury. It was about how he opened the door for me in those hotels and how he helped me with the luggage. Or when a drunk guy at work tried to convince me why I needed immediately to have sex with him, he saw the situation, got my hand without a word and escorted me to his table. In that move there was no possession, "this is my girl" or anything, just the well-known old chivalry. 
Lots of guys just dream about dating a stripper. Well, if they behave like most of our customers, no wonder why they don't have a chance. How to put it in the right way: you have 20 balls front of you, 19 red and only one blue. The blue one will get your attention, simply because it's different from the others.
I'm a stripper but also a woman. And just because I'm a stripper, I don't tolerate misbehaved guys, I would rather go for someone who knows how to treat a woman and make her feel special.


Saturday, 10 June 2017

The judgement is yours. The lessons are mine.

This lifestyle still holds so many secrets. Some people have no clue about it. Men see the pretty girl on stage doing some erotic moves and slowly taking her clothes off while they fantasize what they would do with her body in private. Dancing is the best aphrodisiac as the soft moves of the body helps to unblock the sexual energies. Men like to watch a woman dancing because they can keep an eye on her from a distance seeing her whole body as it moves with the rhythm of the music and makes her irresistibly desirable for them. I know exactly what effects I make with my performance. Men enjoy watching the dance while women are more judgemental towards us. This is totally fine. But I want to point out that we dancers are normal people just like anybody else. We also cry and share the same feelings. Sometimes we are desperate or confused, and sometimes we want to give up everything for a man we trust, just like those women who never worked in this night life. I've seen many movies about strippers life, being constantly drunk and taking drugs, being forced into prostitution. I must say I have never been forced to do anything I didn't want to do. Maybe I was young, naive or a little drunk when I stretched my boundaries, but I wouldn't consider myself deviant because of that. The judgement is yours. The lessons are mine. Until today I have no regrets about my choice. If I had a chance to change my life, probably I would do everything in the same way I did in the past. It's not only the easy money, not even the people I've met and the places I've seen, but all the life lessons I've learned during this period. They made me strong without losing myself. They opened my eyes but still kept me cautious at the same time. I've learned a lot about myself, but most importantly I've learned how to handle my limits and how to push my boundaries further.

(From the book Bedtime Stories from Stripperland)

Wednesday, 7 June 2017

Photoblog - Budapest dream

These photos are from last summer when I worked with a talented Hungarian photographer. I was very happy with the photos but sadly after he stopped taking pictures..

Photos by Laszlo Racz
hungarianportrait.com